The past 3 weeks have been full of trials, challenges, stress, anxiety, sadness, frustration, etc.
My dad has been gone for three weeks now. Three weeks ago today, my mom found him in his room, unresponsive. The coroner said he had already been dead for several hours.
This is such a difficult time for all of us. Sometimes it doesn't even seem real. Sometimes I feel like I've stepped outside of myself and this reality, and I am watching all of these things happen around me, to me, to my family.
I have had several, several issues that I have been praying about continually. So far, God has not revealed the answers I wanted to hear. Yes, he does hear my prayers, he listens to my prayers. But he answers my prayers in HIS own way. In HIS own time. And what may seem like a non-response from him, there's always a reason, a response, an action. It's up to me whether or not I decide to receive his message.
Most of all, I pray for guidance. I pray for patience, strength, wisdom, energy, endurance, perseverance. There are days where I wish I could just give up, but then what? That's not even an option. But the hopeless feeling sets in when all I'm faced with is setback after setback. I realize that setbacks are something that you can learn from, if you handle it the right way. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and march on. And hopefully you will be stronger than you were before you fell. Because falling doesn't make you weak. Only if you choose to let it make you weak. Falling can make you stronger.
When you go through something like this, something you thought you would never have to go through, you learn alot about yourself and the people around you. I have learned that I have more faith than I realized. I have learned that I am stronger than I ever thought I was, or could be.
I've learne d that God will give you help when you need it. That you don't have to carry on alone, depending only on yourself. He helps those who ask for it.
Hebrews 4:16
"Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help (us) in time of need."
My dad has been gone for three weeks now. Three weeks ago today, my mom found him in his room, unresponsive. The coroner said he had already been dead for several hours.
This is such a difficult time for all of us. Sometimes it doesn't even seem real. Sometimes I feel like I've stepped outside of myself and this reality, and I am watching all of these things happen around me, to me, to my family.
I have had several, several issues that I have been praying about continually. So far, God has not revealed the answers I wanted to hear. Yes, he does hear my prayers, he listens to my prayers. But he answers my prayers in HIS own way. In HIS own time. And what may seem like a non-response from him, there's always a reason, a response, an action. It's up to me whether or not I decide to receive his message.
Most of all, I pray for guidance. I pray for patience, strength, wisdom, energy, endurance, perseverance. There are days where I wish I could just give up, but then what? That's not even an option. But the hopeless feeling sets in when all I'm faced with is setback after setback. I realize that setbacks are something that you can learn from, if you handle it the right way. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and march on. And hopefully you will be stronger than you were before you fell. Because falling doesn't make you weak. Only if you choose to let it make you weak. Falling can make you stronger.
When you go through something like this, something you thought you would never have to go through, you learn alot about yourself and the people around you. I have learned that I have more faith than I realized. I have learned that I am stronger than I ever thought I was, or could be.
I've learne d that God will give you help when you need it. That you don't have to carry on alone, depending only on yourself. He helps those who ask for it.
Hebrews 4:16
"Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help (us) in time of need."
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