I get discouraged. A lot.

The thoughts that cross my mind, more than any other thoughts are:

"am I cut out for this?"

"can I really do this?"

"I can't do this."

"I'm not good enough."

"I'm not as good as (insert name of person who can do it better here)"

"I don't have the knowledge, skills, drive, passion, strength, endurance, patience, wisdom, etc etc etc"


STOP!!!!

I need to change my way of thinking. Each time I have a thought like that, I need to make myself stop and think. Look at where I am now. Look how much my life has improved. I went from the gutter to a yellow brick road. Better than a yellow brick road. Because when the journey is over, it's not all smoke and mirrors and a man behind a curtain. I know better than that.

I need to realize I AM GOOD ENOUGH. I can do this just as good, if not BETTER, than (insert name of person here who I previously thought had an advantage over me, but then I realized that's not the case. Not even close)

It's hard to change that kind of thinking though. And that discouragement feels like a lead blanket. You know, the kind the dental assistant drapes over you when it's time for x-rays.